She pokes me, she pulls me. Reminding me of truth.
Her shuttle ways of knowing seem to get drowned by my fears and insecurities.
She speakes up at times, yet I desired to quiet her. I know she so badly wants me to listen.
Why I can't or don't at times; that is the seeking.
I know she just wants the best for me.
I know it would serve my highest good to listen, yet I often ignore.
I'm sorry, I know........ I feel I need to let go and listen, but it's hard.
It comes and goes.
I understand and then I don't.
I need to remember that compassion and love is all she want's from me.
Beating heart, don't give up on me.
I feel the nudges, I do. I promise.
I am practicing each time to be stronger, braver, and to follow your guidance.
I won't give up.
I will keep striving towards my highest good I promise.
Just be patient with me beating heart.
I know.
-Tara Newbigging
