The nudges are present, showing up again and again.
The quiet whispers to awaken new parts of self.
She's there, waiting for you to attend to her needs, desires, and calls.
The divine feminine, this way of being.
The subconscious thoughts roll towards the conscious in a mixed jungle of tangles.
"Do this, do that."
"That's what has worked before."
"I feel,"
"I want,"
"I need,"
"I don't understand,"
"I want it to change,"
"stop!!!!"
"That's not what's going to get you where you want to be."
"Who do you think you are?"
"Oh but I just want to..."
"Maybe I will try."
"You can't do that."
"I don't know how it will be."
Looping, Looping, looping.
The thoughts.
Notice the important ones, and the not so important ones.
Sit with self. Learn, grow, change.
That feeling of something new about to emerge.
The old is not feeling so great, and the new is so unknown and scary.
Define, control, go after, you know that's not be the answer.
What is?
Listen, let go, follow the nudges, pulls and screams. Tend to the parts that bring up discomfort and listen to new desires.
Before it emerges, get to the roots, and make sure you plant new seeds.
The root that needs purging shows up.
Sit with it.
The back of your throat swirls, and creates an energy in your chest.
Lies, lies, lies.
You are enough,
you have lot's to say that is important,
you must never little yourself.
You can, and are meant too.
Submerge, submerge bright flower!
The struggle can stop,
Emerge!
-Tara Newbigging